Haih... Nothing change....

haih... that's it.
nothing.
happened.
at all.
well, i don't think feel things get any better after holiday.
I really don't know what else I can do.
I think that's just it...

*listen
I don't know what are you going to do,
and i also don't know what to do.
If you wanna make thing goes like this.
It couldn't work anyway.
It'll only make things worse.

what happened???

ya, right... there we go, again... *sigh
i was so regret that I started it for the first time last year...
If i didn't started it, it won't have nowadays.
This time, not me. her.

She seem so... different these few weeks...
while, she can talk and laugh with lx, but why not me??
Everytime I want to get closer to her, but i can't get through.

Maybe you hate me.
Fine.
I fine with that, but at least tell me the reason.
This is not the first time, everytime, everytime you act like that.
threat me as a doll.
when you don't want to care, then you don't care...
not even a reason.
don't you remember that last time you and your friends???
you're so innocent, and don't know what's the reason. that's what happen to me.
at least a reason...
and i was being like a stupid asking you without answer...
I threat you as my true friend, a friend that i never ever regret that I have a friend like you.
but what am i to you???
and why...
that you're so hard to understand???

:)

Today daddy and mummy throw a party ♥ ;)
It was funnnnnnnnnn !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And of course, we got ang pauuuuuu :D

Zoey came too, we play board game =.=
Anyway, today was cool ! ♥ :)

ps: zoey lim you're too generous :)

yen lu ♥

Happy CNY ♥

Happy CNY, guys...
This year was different...
I miss grandpa so much !!! ♥
It was the first CNY that i celebrate without him...

By the way, my hometown, Labis... :(
FLOODED !!!!!!
i was worrying about it~ :(
Jesus, please stop the rain...
I wan go back... :(

PS: Happy CNY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

♥ yen lu

Christmas :)

Christmas is coming... ohhhh... I love ♥ Christmas !!!!!
too bad :(
no Christmas for me this year... mom said just respect grandpa :(
not even Christmas Tree~
so i guess my Christmas will be celebrating... In my heart. :)

♥ yen lu :)

gathering ♥ ^^

ytd went gathering at chow ling's house... omg !
such a long long time didn't meet them... I miss u guys... li ying laopo, zi kei, mellie, jaselyn, geraldine and wan qian~ ^^
the gathering start at 4pm, but we gathered early, 2pm. I went to Villa Angsana meet li ying, kei, mellie, jaselyn and wan qian 1st. Zi kei cut her hair, I didn't recognize her... haha... after we all gathered, we went to geraldine's grandma house by li ying's mum car. we chit-chat until 4:30pm ++ then walk to chow's hse... some of them were there already. about the food... erm... don't wanna talk about it =[
6:00 pm something we walk back to geraldine's grandma house. we ordered yummyyyyyyyyyyy fooooooooooooddddddd !!!!!!!!!!
then go home looo.... hope will see them again ^^
what a wonderful day !!!

I miss all my friend... li ying, zi kei, mellie, geraldine, jaselyn and wan qian...
of course lee xuen, ying xi, dana, chia wen, shu en, siz kai and all the members of CCA !!!!! miss u guys !!!

love from yen lu =]

will it make a differences???

Will it make a differences???
I thought that everything will make a differences started with a 'sorry' ...
will it be???
I really think that We're Venus and Mars, We're like different stars... I really think that I didn't do anything wrong. Just that line of words, and that she show her attitude, like I own her... why??? I was just telling the truth ! I didn't do anything wrong... But,
But one day, I close my eyes and facing the view right at the window of my house. I think. I think a lot. Okay. Maybe both of us also wrong. I shouldn't talk to her that way, and she can no need to be like that... And, she's angry. No. Maybe she already hate me. but, I don't care anymore. I don't want things to be so complicated, I just want it go simple. But you want things to be like this, that your choice.
But honestly,
I can tell you that...
the limit, the limit that I don't like you was just mad at you...
I can mad at you, but I can't hate you.
Why???
I mad at you why you be like this, but I can't forget the moment and time that you made me laugh...
That time during the HPV, teacher ask us to close our eyes and think happy things... I think the moment that we laugh together...
On the day that I talk to you that way, I think a very curious question...
Is it the better way that...
I let go??? ...

holiday ♥

my holiday seems not sooooooo fun... just visited some place... but not a very fun place.
during school days i waited for holidays....
during holiday i waited for school days...
dunno why... =(

liying laopo ♥
i miss you too ♥♥
I also 9 months didn't see you already...
I wonder how are you??
And sorry if I always miss the gathering... I really can't attend. :(
I promise...
Next gathering, i won't miss it !
It's a deal...

my dear friend yingxi ♥
Is a bit late but still have to say...
welcome back ♥

Thank God...

Last time, I've post a post about my friendship...
Thank God, we've past this challenge...
but sometimes I was like a transparent mirror to her... like I'm not there, and she keep talking...
:( that feeling was bad. She treat me as a transparent mirror, and I didn't talk, no one talk to me of cause i didn't talk... sometimes she thinks I'm angry... :(
*sigh...
I dunno what to do... Last time when she was happy with her, i dunno why... That feeling... was soooooo embarrassing... NO... that word is, jealous... that's pretty funny... but now... after the texting, I feel more realese! No more jealous... ya, maybe they're still close, but I already put down... as long as she talk to me, then it all fine... but we're not same with before anymore... she didn't go recess and after school with me anymore, she's with her... I miss the time we go recess and after school together... *sigh From now on, I tell myself... as Miss. Goh said, if the things effects you, don't go look at that thing~ so, if I jealous them, don't go look at them !!! that's it !!! i get it now...
but just today, I cannot hold it anymore... i just ...... And I saw her talking to her... like very angry... look like she's talking about me ... to her. :(
I really miss the time we spent together last time :(
too bad, maybe there's no more last time anymore... :(


yen lu =]

friendship...

How was a real friendship that can hold forever???
*sigh... i dunno why, the other person cut in this friendship... so it takes all my happy away... from that day on, i often smile in class...
So this had always causes a argument between us... And every time, is because of the person... I had told her before I hate the person, but she dun understand. I told her because if it still going like this, i know it will always be an argument between us... too bad that she dun understand what I mean.
She always think I will always be angry, but I'm not. Every time, every time when i talk to her, I need to think, I have to think before i talk: will this words make her angry??? will this word hurt her??? If will, I won't tell it out... but sometimes she didn't care about me, she just tell, even though she hurt me, she also dun know...
I hope, truly hope, that god can gives us strength and bravely to face this things. and i also hope, that god will helps us, helps us to solve it...

yen lu.

my first time at CF~

Yesterday went to CF~ thanks to ying xi~
hopefully they didn't notice me, so i didn't introduce myself =] thank god.
Although I'm a christian, but I'm still shy at there. hehe...
I wan to go early, because I wanna help Pn. Jamilah... that ying xi ho... dun let me go by dun let me know the time... bad ying xi~
but I still leave early when they didn't notice me... haha...
but i really have a wonderful time at CF~
PS: ying xi, i will always be so lucky... because there's no more second time for me at CF lol~ haha...

Pesta Ria 2010

Today was a big day for St. Mary, Pesta Ria~
Busy day for us. we neeed to sell things. our class sell foods and keychains... I helps to sell keychain... I do it 1 for my self too.

my name~

So is quite busy today~

those ppl got no eyes. so big writing 1 elephablet for RM 1, they still want to ask. And the word ' FOR PRE-ORDERED ONLY ' so BIG they also didn't see. haizzzz...

$$ Money keep soming in~ great !!! $.$

Is there any forever after???

Is there any forever after???
I believe the answer is: No.
there's no any friendship is forever after~
my sister taught me a lesson: There's no any friendship is forever after in secondary school~Be selfish !!!

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Long time didn't update.
That day go take report card also didn't post. that day take report card. :) I get 7 over 45 !!!!! Wow !!! I didn't thought that... just think that i could just get a 20 something over 45 then OK already. how come... I was freaking happy that day !!! :)
Back to this Monday, during assembly.
In St. Mary, which class got the 'kelas terkotor' must stand all the way during assembly, until the end. so everyone staring at you, that feeling was sooooooooooooo BAD !!!!! And our class did !!! we got the 'kelas terkotor' !!!!! :( when the teacher announce, we all turn our face to the field. no face to face them. pity our monitor, she have to get up there and receive the tag from our headmistress.
so erm... these few days nothing special.
just waiting for the day to watch 'eclipse'~

yen lu =]

hate that !!!

Omg !!! My class mates call me 'yeng lu' !!!!! I'm suppose to be yen lu and not 'yeng lu' !!!!! I HATE PPL CALL ME 'YENG LU' !!!!! :(

And I change my blog templates, again. :)
Is BLUE~~~
I like blue... :) :) :) And I change my title too. :)
make it fresh~ :)

♥ yen lu :)

results...

long time didn't update~
well, almost get all of my result. Is okay but is still unstable...

Mid Term

BM →A
BI →A
B.CINA →A
SEJARAH→A
GEO →A
KH →B T.T
MATH →A
SC →A

SIVIK →A

Some haven get yet, so dunno yet.
Pei Harn did it awesome as she did it at primary school. her sejarah got 96, i think. but our teacher told us 1A class got 1 girl sejarah get 100% !!!!! She's crazy... but smart.
I hate myself why my KH get B !!! I'll try to work hard. :)

♥ yen lu =]

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our school got a pesta ria~ they give us each 5 tickets. want us to sell them all !!! impossible. now i also dunno want sell to who. haizzz......
so far the pesta ria was at 24/7. so long yet~ =[

phew~ finally over

phew~ finally over !!!!!!!!!!!!!
now we need to worry about the result. =[ I don't think I did it good. :(
Oh father god~ please help me !!! Don let me 'pengsan' when teacher give back us the test paper.

lazy~

what a lazy day to study. :(
I try to force myself to study and keep on telling myself: you is going to exam, study study study !!!
but it no use. :( so here I spend time on computer. :) get back to the exam and think, i did it sucks !!!
Day 1: BI 2 & Geography
my geography was sucks !!! BI got some problem on the section C :(
Day 2: Moral & science
science OK la. at least can do. I'm gonna failed MORAL !!!!!!!!!! I memorized all the meaning of each ' nilai ', but it just come out 3 meaning !!! And the others?? sucks !!! I'm gonna died on moral !!!
Day 3: Seni 2
drawing. great !!!!! i can't imagine I did it !!! But my seni teacher help me put more thing on my painting. :) or :( I also dunno
After recess is Miss Boey retired program, so touching !!! thay made Miss boey a video, funny !
Day 4: Wesak Holiday ^^

miss it again =[

I'm gonna miss our 6H gathering. I already miss kei's b'dae party and now i'm gonna miss the gathering. =[
that day go Bukit Tinggi. I tell mellie i cnt go, she said I always like that. she is angry with me. ohh god. but luckily my laopo not angry me. but i need to see her at the next gathering already. that mean... NEXT YEAR !!!!! :( :( :( sorry guys~ i will miss you !!!!! all of you !!!!! ♥
this week is exam week. sucks !!!!! especialy moral ! =[