Haih... Nothing change....

haih... that's it.
nothing.
happened.
at all.
well, i don't think feel things get any better after holiday.
I really don't know what else I can do.
I think that's just it...

*listen
I don't know what are you going to do,
and i also don't know what to do.
If you wanna make thing goes like this.
It couldn't work anyway.
It'll only make things worse.

what happened???

ya, right... there we go, again... *sigh
i was so regret that I started it for the first time last year...
If i didn't started it, it won't have nowadays.
This time, not me. her.

She seem so... different these few weeks...
while, she can talk and laugh with lx, but why not me??
Everytime I want to get closer to her, but i can't get through.

Maybe you hate me.
Fine.
I fine with that, but at least tell me the reason.
This is not the first time, everytime, everytime you act like that.
threat me as a doll.
when you don't want to care, then you don't care...
not even a reason.
don't you remember that last time you and your friends???
you're so innocent, and don't know what's the reason. that's what happen to me.
at least a reason...
and i was being like a stupid asking you without answer...
I threat you as my true friend, a friend that i never ever regret that I have a friend like you.
but what am i to you???
and why...
that you're so hard to understand???