Thank God...

Last time, I've post a post about my friendship...
Thank God, we've past this challenge...
but sometimes I was like a transparent mirror to her... like I'm not there, and she keep talking...
:( that feeling was bad. She treat me as a transparent mirror, and I didn't talk, no one talk to me of cause i didn't talk... sometimes she thinks I'm angry... :(
*sigh...
I dunno what to do... Last time when she was happy with her, i dunno why... That feeling... was soooooo embarrassing... NO... that word is, jealous... that's pretty funny... but now... after the texting, I feel more realese! No more jealous... ya, maybe they're still close, but I already put down... as long as she talk to me, then it all fine... but we're not same with before anymore... she didn't go recess and after school with me anymore, she's with her... I miss the time we go recess and after school together... *sigh From now on, I tell myself... as Miss. Goh said, if the things effects you, don't go look at that thing~ so, if I jealous them, don't go look at them !!! that's it !!! i get it now...
but just today, I cannot hold it anymore... i just ...... And I saw her talking to her... like very angry... look like she's talking about me ... to her. :(
I really miss the time we spent together last time :(
too bad, maybe there's no more last time anymore... :(


yen lu =]

friendship...

How was a real friendship that can hold forever???
*sigh... i dunno why, the other person cut in this friendship... so it takes all my happy away... from that day on, i often smile in class...
So this had always causes a argument between us... And every time, is because of the person... I had told her before I hate the person, but she dun understand. I told her because if it still going like this, i know it will always be an argument between us... too bad that she dun understand what I mean.
She always think I will always be angry, but I'm not. Every time, every time when i talk to her, I need to think, I have to think before i talk: will this words make her angry??? will this word hurt her??? If will, I won't tell it out... but sometimes she didn't care about me, she just tell, even though she hurt me, she also dun know...
I hope, truly hope, that god can gives us strength and bravely to face this things. and i also hope, that god will helps us, helps us to solve it...

yen lu.